Raw, graphic, candid portrait of two young gay men whose love affair is deeply affected by the scars they sustained from childhood sexual abuse. Tammy and Jamie are soul mates, but their love is thwarted for years by bad timing, fear of ridicule, and the damage that lingers long after childhood. Along with the internal, there are external forces that threaten to separate them forever.
Can love overcome any obstacle?
Can it erase the shame and horror of the past?
Can it triumph against hatred, even the hatred of one’s self?
In a small northern California town, a young boy loses his innocence when his manipulative uncle molests him.
Only a few miles away, hidden from the outside world and subjected to cruelties beyond imagining, another little boy pleads for mercy.
When the two children meet in a supermarket, a lifelong bond is forged – one that is fatefully reinforced when they fleetingly cross paths again in high school.
The years pass, but they cannot forget each other…
An old enemy watches and waits, eager for an opportunity to destroy them,igniting a bitter, wrenching battle in the war between love and tolerance, and hate and bigotry.
Brimming with raw intimacy and erotic catharsis, CRUSH is the terrifying and revealing journey of two souls and their determination to live and love, in freedom and without fear.
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The dream music soundtrack I created for Crush. I had no computer of my own while writing Crush, so I listened to my bedside radio and CDs. A lot of older CDs I had collected over the years were gone, left behind in my former home in Idaho, destroyed, lost, etc. So I wrote Crush on notebooks and took them every day to the public library to transcribe onto a public computer and onto a FLOPPY DISK until a helpful person alerted me that we were in the 21st century and told me the library had flash disks available for $4! The songs on this dream playlist are truly the songs I listened to on old CDs or on the radio. I was in Fresno, CA the entire time I wrote Crush from August 2010 to April 2011 and during a year afterward of editing with my new editor, Debbie McGowan of Beaten Track Publishing. The music is a very eclectic mixture, as I’d like any playlist to be. The only music genres I hate are modern country music from the USA (I know that the UK produces country music of their own, and I can’t judge that as I haven’t heard enough of it) and certain kinds of jazz, especially elevator music jazz), but I love a lot of music, from a lot of different time periods. Crush is mostly ’80s new wave or British electronica that emerged from the ’80s. It’s also what are called Old School or Jammin’ Oldies, which on my local Fresno station, was anything from The Flamingoes to Keith Sweat to Tupac, stuff I grew up listening to, even though I’m so white you’re in danger of getting your eyes bleached out if you look at me without sunglasses on.
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